It feels really sucky to be torn in between. It suck to be in a position to hurt other's feeling. All it takes is just a day, and there goes the beautiful castle. Im quiet today and it is pretty ironic they say. Im always full of shit but i just have nuthing to speak. My nerve is racking and i dunoe why? I hope i dont have to foresee and i hope i dont have to expect. I just dont have an answer to myself or to anyone. Im forever lost and confuse. Dear angel, pls be there for me right now. I just hope you can tell me sth that i cant come out it with myself. I know you cant be there for me all the time, but i hope this is one of those time you try.